I am just thoughtful here to write about something that's haunt on my empty mind since such a long time so finally i am daring to write something about my marriage life... I am seriously honest and respect my own feelings as well as. Somehow i am just erasing my burden some of relationship and past for better further life .........
I do not have any problem to share what i learn and what i knew.......seriously i have such a so many regrets and guilts in every day while i am happy with my own life but stil i have some regrets and guilts nightmare about my first marriage.
Its such a one of best lives and creating own world with myself as well as. I do not have any regrets and guilt about i was not responsible and loveable bcoz of its just awesome marriage. Every thing was perfect and going on but some of things ruin its so by time being i do accept that its my fault bcoz of i make more optimistic and more hope full from life with marriage but its does not work as i was optimistic in my first marriage life as well as.
Even stil i felt somewhere about my regrets and guilt bcoz of some blur memories but we are hopeless if you are alone in relationship since marriage to divorce so finally it was over....
Second marriage is just an accident and unconsciously unconditionally i am proving that stil i can do it and show all of my enemy that i can do better in marriage and any relationships so for time being its done but without happiness and trust. Its just an accident so its happened with my ego and my previous marriages families bcoz i want to prove that i do not care and i do not stick with first marriage life and relationship any more ......
I had did best with my rest of ability and wisdom but its remind me my first relationship every time everything even though i am going on well........ i had complete in second relationship with my wisdom but its far from my relationships so finally i stopped myself........
I had second relationship bcoz of i do not want to run a single person more than 3 years and ruin my life with spoil my life ..... I do not want to die myself any more ..... i had spent entire life to managed and correct first relationship but i was lost. I lost everything so i need to raise again and prove myself as well as .......
seriously i had spent few years to gain all about but finally my ego diverts to another relationship to show all of my enemy that i can do better ............
Thats it ! still i do not have any regrets and guilts about all of those relationship bcoz change is principal of life so move on is life......
lets move on ๐
